Episode 67: Psalm 63:6-8
Transcription
Today’s verse is Psalm 63:6-8
On my bed I remember You;
I think of You through the watches of the night.
Because You are my help,
I sing in the shadow of Your wings.
I cling to You;
Your right hand upholds me.
Let’s pray together.
God, the night is an interesting time. I am vulnerable. I am alone. I am stripped of distraction. I am in the dark. Whatever is most important to me is revealed. My thoughts are open before You. I cannot hide. Perhaps I am lonely, perhaps I am afraid, perhaps I am angry, perhaps I am prideful, perhaps I am selfish, perhaps I am critical, perhaps I am sad, perhaps I am exhausted, perhaps I am broken in my humanity.
In those moments, Jesus, be ever most in my mind and uppermost in my thoughts. I pray that I cling to You, to the knowledge of You, to Your presence. I don’t want anything else to be primary. I want to feel assured that I am giving You my all. How pleasant You are and how pleasant is thinking about Your love. I know I might need Your comfort, but I also want to rejoice in You.
I want my mind to be filled with thoughts of Your sacrifice, Your kindness, Your generosity, Your love, Your forgiveness, Your mercy, Your gentleness, Your words, Your deeds. You, You, You. I want to be so in love with You, You are all that I think of. I want my dreams to be full of You. I want to wake up and remember You. I want to spend each night with You.
I cannot do anything in life without You. When I try, I fail miserably. I end up doing it wrong. I end up hurting people. I end up making myself unhappy. I end up twisted, my priorities askew, and everything clutched tightly in my hands. I cannot let anything go. Instead, may I hold onto You. May You be what I grasp, and may I be held in Your hands. May I be safe in the knowledge that I can give up control to You. Help me to trust and understand how secure I am because of You. Help me to know deep in my soul that You are my Provider and I don’t have to do everything on my own. I have help. I have a Guardian and a Protector and a Healer and a Guide.
So I rejoice in this knowledge. I am giddy with love, giddy with joy, giddy that You are with me. I am a child, dancing with my Father. I am a woman in love in Your arms. I am open before You and unafraid, always reassured and comforted by the barrier of Your love. I cannot be harmed. You will always protect me. I sing and shout and am merry. I am Yours.
Thank You, my dear God and Savior. Thank You for all that You do. You are with me at all times. You have saved me. You are mine and I am Yours. I am so grateful and I pray that I remain so, never forgetting what You have done and what I have in You.
I pray all of these things in Jesus’ powerful name. Amen.
